I have been away for a full week and i am so sorry! Moving and graduating plus a wedding. FINALLY BACK.
Someone update me on what has happened. Who has left & who has auditions out there.
I AM TRYING TO FIX EVERYTHING BUT I AM JUST BUSY.
all i want is a reply. that will make me and make Vitani happy. Let her move on with her recovery.
GAH.
With her bags fully packed Vitani scanned over her room once more. She had almost spent a whole year in the semi small room. Alot of things had happened but all that she saw now was heart break. Everything and anything reminded her of him. That is all she could think about. What she had done and how her whole life seemed almost over. To come to terms with this feeling was hard enough but it was the only way she could go about it right now. After what happened. What she did to herself and to the person she loved more then anything…there was only one thing to do. Go home. Not forever and not for long, but if she was going to pull herself together, make herself worthy of Robin again…she needed to regain her true self. Rotting in bed was not helping anything and being anywhere near him was tearing her to pieces.
Making her way down the two flights of stairs she dragged her bag to the door. Kicking it over to the side the natural scowl on her face was filled with sadness. She was leaving what was them. For the last 5 months nobody mattered at this school but herself and Robin. That was gone and he clearly wanted nothing to do with her. That alone was keeping her on the track of going home. Peering through the front window of the dorm building she looked through the gates…waiting for the car to arrive, so she can crawl back home. As it felt like hours, but really only minutes Vitani let out a huff. She couldnt leave yet, she couldnt. Quickly turning around Vitanis red hair flew over her shoulders and she faced the stairs.
She took off at them for once. Taking them two by two she moved up the flights. Sophomore Floor. Junior Floor. Then she reached the senior floor. Not even out of breath she felt her body get a bit overwhelmed. This was it, she was going to force herself to face him. Passing through the commons she saw people she didnt know, they didnt matter. Door swinging to the boys hall she almost ran to his room. It was all so natural but all so sad at the same time. As he door got closer she gripped on the handle and flung the door open. Almost sliding she came to a halt just inside his door. At this point she was slightly out of breath. Vitani took in a few quick breaths before she shifted her eyes up, and there he was.
Eyes blinking slowly she felt her body shiver. For the first time in 3 weeks he was infront of her. The scowl was gone and it was replaced with sadness. The tears were swelling but they werent flowing. Just resting at the corners. Finally as the awkward feeling fell upon her she felt the urge to grab him. Just hold him, but she couldnt. He didnt want her any more. Shaking her head she lifted her shoulders up a bit. “Uhh Robin…” She stammered. “Im going home.” As the word home fell off her tongue a small tear fell down her cheek. “I know you want nothing to do with me, and i know you have ignored everything i have said to you but i couldnt leave without telling you.” Vitani took in a few quick breaths and she slowly moved towards him. The urge to wrap her arms around him was pushing through her body but she was resisting. The closer she got to him the more tears started to flow down her face. Slowly but more and more fell. “I will be back in a week.” She knew he didnt care. He couldnt care. She hurt him too much. Taking in a deep breath and she shook her head. “Like i said before I love you and i will always love you.” Vitani reached her hand out and placed it in the middle of his chest. Resting it there for only a moment she closed her eyes and backed away. Moving backwards she kept her eyes on him. “You are far too important to me to not say goodbye Robin Hood.” Vitani kept moving back towards the door. “I will never give up, you never give up on the right one.” As she finally approached the door she took in a quick breath. “I am forever yours, even if you dont want me Robin.” Vitani looked at Robin waiting for a reply, she felt like she would never get one. Thinking about it tore her to pieces inside. Slowly looking back at him she let her bottom lip shake just a bit. “Can you just say something?” She took in a deep breath. “I will be waiting down stairs.” Vitani looked at him one last time before she slowly walked down the hall.
